I m missing eu . .

I went to uncle tom's grave yesterday . . alone . . i shed tears soo much . . i was dissapointed beacause his name on the tombstone were spell wrongly . . fed up siak ! My heart aches like shit , why did he have to go so early ? I still nid him in my lyfe . . he meant alot to me , he was the only man whom has showered me with soo much lurve . . no other man cud do wat he have done to me . . dear god plz giive me strength to move on , it hurts deeply losing sumone eu love soo much . . i m dying . . uncle tom , u are a good man ! god loves u more . . i ve to move on eventhough its hard , i m missing u . . haish . . i promise i will change fer the better ! U are one great man ! i will nvr forget u ! And if i were to grow old n get married i will tell all m children about a man whom lurves their mummy so much , thats him , uncle tom . .

i m a fool lurving eu !

Sometimes I wonder , why am I such a fool to love u deeply ? Eventhough I know at the end of the day , u will break my heart ? Why did u have to make use of me ? Because u know that I will not get over u ? U know that I m the only one whom gonna love u truly , madly , deeply . . N give up everything for u even if it have to be my lyfe by all means ? Haha , yes I admit I was a fool “at that time” . . You can fool some of the people, some of the time.. But you cant fool this heart of mine.. Its sad but its true , i wont be a fool.. im over you .. You learn with every goodbye. Once bitten , twice shy . . U nvr really love me do u ? U are such a loser man ! Get real ! Eu hurt me enuf , n one day , one day , eu will feel how i feel . . its eu that let me drop & go . . not me . . im moving on , i will survive & make it thru tonite . . God has open up my eyes n make me see yr true colours ! U re not Mr Romeo ! U re Mr Dahi Cap Nonok ! *giggles* I just need one man to prove me wrong , n i tot it was u , but boy , eu are nowhere near there . . hahaha . . u suck Mr Dahi Cap Nonok , u survive on woman's money ! Loser ! I hate eu !

Its too late to regret . .

I woke up juz now feeling sorry for myself . . I walk to my study table , n switch my laptop on ,n start writing this . .



Wat shud i do this tyme ? why is his memories still mingling in my mind ? Why is there no getting over hym ? why does my heart still urges for his love ? is this retribution ? did i deserve this treatment for hurting uncle tom cruely ? uncle tom die of heart attack , n these past few days i ve been feeling sorry for myself looking at his picture & crying . . Haish , its too late to regret now . . he's gone out of my lyfe forever , he will nvr cum back even if tears of blood are shed . . i insult him till i cant think of any more words to say , i make hym cry . . I make him suffer , i m sorry uncle tom , i didnt meant to hurt eu , now eu re gone and i realised how much sacrifes eu make for me . . i really miss eu , who is going to lend me a shoulder to cry on now ? May eu rest in peace uncle tom , god loves eu more . .

My prettyboy left me all alone , he left without goodbye . Haish ,its painful . . But the fact is still the fact . . i must face the reality ,he hurt me enough ! He hurt me silently , he use my past as a weapon against me . . slowly he gathers everything n when the ryte time comes , he blew it off . .
And it hurts soo deeply , he make me stands above all & at the end of the day , he brings me crashing to the ground . . I m soo hurt , deeply . . i wish i could turn back the time . . but i couldnt , my effort & sacrifes when down the drain . . My lurve was unappriciate . . And those
'i love u ' , words u say , u didnt mean it ! those were all bullshit ! i will always remember my dearest prettyboy ! i use all those insults u lay upon me , and make myself stronger ! One day u will regret ! I promise this !

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